Idk... peer pressure gets to you. Too many people are into enjoying life. Whereas I'm suppressing myself. I have to focus on being myself. Keep believing what I believe is right. I don't know why I always go against the majority. fml........
Idk fk everything. I'll go back to hiding. I actually want to focus on playing golf. The only thing that interests me. It calms my mind. Its a rich man's sport. Thankfully, I have some talent in it. Idk..... I just fell in love with it. I would take my clubs home and practice every day in my room. Keep practicing until I could hit the ball. I did impress a lot of people. However, my parents never let me walk that path. idk... too insecure. The chances of me becoming a professional is slim. Well, at least my dad enjoys taking me for golf now.
I need to take my dad's job for too many reasons. Well, the pay is pretty low but I don't have anything to leave behind. Just keep moving. fk.................I got skin infection.
I wonder why everyone wants to become what I am... you have to keep killing yourself until you can appreciate human interaction. That takes a while. I would really recommend the mind set of an optimist.
Well, I'm not exactly a true pessimist though. I'm probably a mix, because I would keep telling about good stuff. Being thank ful for a lot of things. But, also pessimistic as well. Idk.......
It also depends on who I am with. If I am with an optimistic person, I'll be pessmistic. If I'm with a optimistic person I'll be pessimistic. vice versa. idk.......I'm to weird. fml fml fml I don't even make sense.
Idk I'll just do what I believe is right until 27. After that I'm doing the normal love, whether or not it ends up hurting someone.
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