omfg the reason why the answer is always pie is because everything is a cycle. omfg.
omfg... I knew everything is a cycle  but I didn't know why people said answer is pie. Makes a lot of sense.

I should just read books rather than try to figure things myself, such a waste of time. I hate reading.

I've realized ADHD, and depression counter act each other. The manic motivations are from ADHD highness, whereas depression demotivates myself.

yeah this is a very depression blog lol. Can't believe parents could change my life so much. Was planning to be a successful business major. Do internships and etc. Fk. I can't graduate. I guess I have to live as society's trash for a while. My parents told me my happiness is their happiness. They never asked what my happiness is. Well I guess its time to climb the engineering ladder. Well, at the moment I can't burn myself. Too exhausted. I'll drop out for a bit.

lol I'm going to be insecure as fuck. Its ok I'm not stupid. I think I'm going to dig into some other stuff. Fking broke people do it all the time. If they can do it, it should be do able.

Now I'm just this negative kid with attitude problems.

Yeah I know what I'm doing. I am punishing myself lol. I've been exhausted to the point I can't focus at all. I guess its time I should retire for a bit and then go back to exhausting myself. Man... fuck my graduation ceremony is going to be so depressing... I can't graduate because I can't focus lololol I mean its actually better for me to not graduate but the ceremony itself is too ironic. lol. hahhaa Man.. Well next time when I come back to America, I'll be fully prepared lol Physically Account settingsand mentally. FUck I can't believe I've became this FUCKING PATHETIC. WTF I'm  A FUCKING LOSER LOL FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK HA Can't believe how funny this is lol Fucking emotions I swear I'll destroy them one day.

Man.. fuck I'm so pissed.


This all because that stupid girl didn't understand why the fuck my life sucks and breaking my jaw at the same time. Keep disconnecting. Keep disconnecting and so on.

ps. skip graduation  since I'm not graduating and eventually close this blog. yeah skip it.. lol dejavu all over again. History seems to repeat itself.

this sucks

Those mother fuckers stole my crap.. lol fuck... I really hope those people are poor as fuck and needed the money. This semester is all about losing things. Losing people, losing important belongings, losing health, losing grades, everything lol. I knew this day was coming. I knew that the day will come when I lose everything. Feelings? pretty damn horrible lol.

 Its ok I just have to finish this month. Go back to Korea gain everything.

1. Work for the belongings I've lost.
2. Educate myself
3. Work out

Man.. its like the good old days when I was nothing. I wonder if I can do it again. fuck..

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Well. Thanks God for giving me such mentality.

Man I love you IPod. RIP. You served me well.

Yeah ... I'm depressed as fuck. Can't believe I couldn't read. At the moment I'm having trouble thinking. I used to have trouble composing sentences correctly as over-thinking led to a disconnection between what I write and what I was thinking. Right now just having trouble learning.  I guess I'm just going to be broken forever. lol. 

I wonder if North Korea is attacking South because the president is a woman. 

I just remembered how much I gave without expecting anything in return. Every memory just make myself sad and sadder. Dear myself don't give. Didn't you just promise yourself to take care of yourself first? Fuck it sadness overrules everything. The Christian girl is the same. She talked about how she is suppose to expect nothing in return. How giving hurts. How she forgets herself in caring about others. She saw my insides. So I returned the favor by seeing her insides. lol. She told me how nice it was for someone to see her inside haha.

Anyways "focus"
1. Skateboarding
2. Guitar
3. Computer Science.
4. Make things.


Everything should be done by 30. I really don't know how far I'll go. I just have to focus on those 4 things. It should make be busy enough. I can't wait for confinement. AH... Love confinement. Fuck I'm still determining if I should work part time. I don't know. I never rested. I think I'll just focus on my studies. Thats more important. I could make money after I get better with computer science. Then, I can work part time on computer projects. I've decided to take computer science as a form of art. That way its possible for me to focus. Fuck.. brain wash myself that I love computer science. I love science. I love science. I love science. The main problem is "quit", "give up", "you can't do it". These words keep repeating itself.

I need to change my mentality. I've always thought just do enough so that I won't get left behind. That was the only purpose of studying. I never wanted to surpass anyone... Just do enough. Well I realized I should start wanting to surpass. Think life as a competition. I'm just exhausted though. I've been trying to keep up with the subject I have no interests in. I've been giving too much.

Time to start over. From scratch. May 5th is when I arrive in Korea. I'll do a reflection on December 31st. That is 240 days. I'll be deleting this blog at May 5th as well. Same with facebook.