Georgia Aquarium: I went to sea Fish.

Yeah I know I spelled "see" wrong, but I thought it was a good pun :) Ok.. it wasn't.

I went to the Georgia Aquarium this week. I finally got a break from school work and a chance to use my awesome, super-expensive-that-I-used -all- my - money- I-don't-have-money-for-food camera. It probably was a irrational decision to sacrifice my food money to get a camera, but when I'm stressed, I really have no reasoning. Oh well, I just have to use it as much as possible!

 The pictures I took were pretty disappointing because the glass used for the tanks would reflect and make the pictures blurry. Also, I'm realizing how horrible blogspot is for adding pictures. I can't organize them! I just have to put them in a uniform line. I guess I should start hunting for new templates available for blogspot... in summer. 

I got pretty decent photos of fish and crabs that didn't move. Hurray me! 

Cute fish bro! 

American aquarium is definitely a different scale from Asian ones. Guess what I found? The biggest mammal living IN a TANK. There were around 3 whale shark. It was pretty amazing. I would have liked to look at them more but I was getting pretty tired. 

This was the only decent photo of all the fishes together -.- Gosh, fish aren't very cooperative when your taking photos. Especially the fat ugly one below the shark.... He kept coming in front of the stingrays, sharks, whale shark etc. I guess inside he was born as a star -.-  

Are you an naengmyeon addict?

I didn't realize until noodle(its a name of a person lol!) told me she didn't like naengmyeon that it was a unique food in Korea. Its hard to love it because its cold noodles. I mean who likes their noodle cold? ..... Me.... I love cold noodles. I haven't tried a lot of cold noodles but I absolutely love naengmyeon and soba. Naengmyeon is especially cold. We have ice cubes floating around the noodle. The reason I love them is because my body feels hot, I want something cold to go in. Plus I hate hot food, they burn my tongue.

So, as a naengmyeon addict I only ate naengmeyon for a week lol. Guess what happened? I got a stomachache  D: I couldn't eat it for a week or so. Of course I started eating naengmeyon at a reduced rate when my stomach got better. Also, as a naengmyeon I search for naengmyeon in the winter, which I did last winter. It was delicious! Lastly, I try to find the best naengmyeon place in the country. I've found two in Malaysia and on really amazing one in Korea(its harder because you want to find the BEST naengmyeon place). Unfortunately I haven't found one in the US. I don't have a car -.-

Why am I babbling about naengmyeon?... I want so right now...!

World of Coca Cola

After doing extremely bad on my test due to my failure in time management, I decided to go to the world of coca cola. I really needed a break from all the school work. I thought I would go crazy.

So, we left around 11 am. We walked as nobody owned a car. It was pretty refreshing. We arrived there around 11:30 am and entered the world of coke. I've been to the older one when I was little, but it was my first time going to the new world of coke.

It was interesting. It had a lot of art related to coke. They offered couple of movies. Plus, I got to take a picture with the polar bear, which made my day <3! The only thing that bothered me was they overemphasized on the "secret formula" of coke... I feel like I was in watching spongbob square pants, except instead of a secret formula of crabby patties, it was coke.

This was the waiting room for the first stage. We had to wait 5 min here but the tv was distracting enough to bring patience.

I found a Korean sign among the many. I felt proud lol. (There's my Korean Pride again sign..)

I actually liked the Japanese flavor more when we were tasting different products from various parts of the world. It takes really veggie and sweet. It tasted cleaner then other soft drinks.

Then, there was beverly... I drank it. I swallowed. I almost puked. I felt dizzy. Thanks!

There were tons of arts on coke. I should have taken more pictures, but I'm still a amateur photographer -.-

After world of coke it was lunch time. I was starving ..... I usually want to eat something really badly at 11am but we were inside the world of coke. We went for a sea food restaurant. It was effing expensive. Well, I really didn't feel like caring so I started ordering away.

The waiter asked if we would like drinks. I just showed him my admission ticket to world of coke.  He laughed and gave us water :)

I ordered the shrimp cocktail. Yummy stuff except I expected like 10 pieces of shrimp.. not 5 lol.

Still I got more shrimp for my main dish which was jasmine delight or something like that. Basically underneath the shrimp there is jasmine rice :) It was very good. I mean it was simple, but compared to what I have been eating, it tasted relatively better.

After eating, I had to pay an expensive bill. I wasn't sure if it was worth it honestly. I had mixed feelings. I mean the food was decent and the atmosphere was pleasant. Except the cost was as much -.- Plus you have to tip in America... I really don't like tipping. (Doesn't mean I don't tip) Its just that tipping for pouring water twice and bringing your food seems too generous. I don't mind the Korean system where we just go get our food and water. Its really not that much work :) Oh well, in Rome do as the Romans do

Letter for someone and future me

Dear Noodle, 

Thanks for contacting me consistently this couple of weeks.

I've been feeling a lot more lonely because I am trying to treat my addictions.

[nvm I'm just lonely cause I'm a loner <3]

Its pretty funny how we can talk forever. 

I've only been with you for like a week and some how we have a lot to talk about. 

I guess you love me a lot <3 

jks 

I enjoy how you always provide me advice with your old wise ajjumma's wisdom. 

I especially like how you told me I should do what I want to do. 

Unfortunately I can't, I have to live up to my parent's expectation. 

But, I do thank you for letting me dreaming about it, which is pretty refreshing

And thanks for hanging out with me this winter.

It was extra fun watching you suffer going up namsan!

jkjks

But it was really fun finding stuff to do in Korea. 

Thanks Noodle! 

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Dear Future Me, 

If I do end up keeping the promise. 

I'll Laugh at you so hard. 

I won't mind you keeping that promise, but I will wonder how you will pull it through.

I wonder if my future parents will disown me or let me go. 

And future me, I wonder you will still have anxiety disorder.

I think I am suffering from it for sure. 

I guess its the reason I'm always nervous and always feel tired. 

I'm pretty sure you won't get any medication, but I wish you luck in not killing yourself.

If you do overcome it, I'll be proud.

I also wonder if you'll meet our parent's expectations.

or 

if you will actually have a dream to follow.

or 

become a homeless hobo.

If you are meeting our parent's expectation.

I congratulate you. 

However, I hope you'll also enjoy it because what college has taught me is that life isn't all about money.

If you do find a dream to follow. 

I'll be surprised. 

I'll be rooting for you, but please don't get disowned.

If you become a homeless hobo. 

I swear you should just kill yourself.

The current me has been working hard without sleep for you and fuck you for failing in life.

And it won't be fair for you to fail it. 

Lastly, future me. 

Please find someone reliable to lean onto.

The current me is very tired of taking on everything myself. 

I'm up to the point that I am exhausted 

Pho on a rainy day!

I've been down lately. I really hate to do school work because I'm doing a major that I don't funny enjoy. I'm just bad at it lol. In the future, I'm all geared to doing mba so I can escape my current life. However, for now I have to live in this hell hole... Luckily my friend was nice enough to call me for pho! It felt really nice to go out :)

I really appreciate pho. Eating it makes me feel a lot better!

Oh I love wraps too. Probably the only wraps I like because I usually hate the wrap skins, but these wraps are awesome. [I don't like wheaty things like bread, wraps, etc]

-.- I think the only reason I've been sane is because I've had a violin. I suck at it, but practicing it makes me somewhat relieved............ I quit violin cause my mom gave me a crappy one to use. Right now I've bought a shiny one so I really want to play rather than study lol!

Maybe I'll upload a song if I am actually ok with it <3

12:04 Studying

lol, this week was extremely busy -.- I've been only sleeping 3 hours... But, its mostly because I can't focus. I get distracted too easily..

Right now I'm studying for my psychology test D:

But, I'm excited that I'm going to eat good food tomorrow and go to the world of coca cola...
I usually don't go out of my dorm because I don't have time and a car. So, it will be really nice! :)

Good luck future me on the test!

Stressed?

Don't you just hate when your stress? I'm like really stressed. Especially because of exams, programming assignments and presentations. Next week, I'll have around 3 tests. I had 4, but I ended up dropping the course. Yeah I know. Dropping is bad, but I'm taking maximum credit hours and research ... I need a break in between or I'll break for sure. I have been catching really bad habits these days... I don't know what to do honestly...

Spend money
This is getting to me these days. I feel like spending money if I am stressed -.- Especially since I'm researching. I get paid and I want to use the money on goods. So, I guess this is why my parents said saving money is harder than making money. If your making money, you want to spend it to relieve your stress!

Eating
I just did this today and the whole of last year. Last year was tough for me. I went to school for a year without a break, since I did summer school. I was so stressed. I found eating ice cream so pleasurable. Especially since ice cream is so affordable in the US. I ended up gaining 10kg. FML. I  stopped doing this. But, just now I had a big big dinner. I kept wanting to eat something :S

Workout 
Its a healthy way to relieve stress, but it has one problem. It makes me tired that I can't do my work. I kind of understand why guys who are focused in sports can't study. Well, its a stereotype but I've experienced a lot of guys who were good at sports but couldn't focus in studying... So, I don't know if I should continue.... I should but I'll go depending on my grade.

Game
I used to do this a lot. I just gamed because I was stressed. For a college student I found this most efficient. I can play an hour, I won't feel too tired and I'll feel all the pleasure I need to. I stopped this as well. Since its a bad habit.

Play music
I play the violin sometimes when I'm stressed. But, I stopped. I should continue, but when you have limited time, its really hard to keep playing the violin continuously.

I KNOW I'm going to follow option spend money soon -.- Yes, I want that camera... God, but it feels bad that I can't control my stress. I wish there were ways to suppress it better. Maybe I should do yoga??? lol!!! I think I would enjoy it. But that also takes time, which I can't afford.

Korean Birthdays!

Haha, my American birthday was really disappointing. Well, I found respect for some people and disappointment from a lot more.

Just going to write about my disappointments.
- It rained, and most of my roommates didn't want to go eat out, although it was a close distance from our dorm.
- Didn't want to go out and eat for dinner because they were too busy.
- Nothing was prepared.

My new respect
- Went to eat out during the rain
- Went to take me out for dinner even though it was somewhat a fail
- Called me for my birthday

So, I'm really disappointed at my roommates, because I usually take care of their birthday. Treat them for food, or buy them small gifts, and make food for them. In return, they were afraid to go out to eat in the rain lol. And I usually don't celebrate my birthday during college. It was the first actual birthday that I tried to celebrate. And it kind of became a disappointment.

Yeah, so I'm back to the point realizing friends from college aren't really reliable. And I should stop caring about their birthdays.

But, I did find greater respect for those who bought me presents, gave me a call, or even facebook me. Well, I giving them more credit because they don't live near me lol. I also found new respect for one of my roommate who went to eat out with me in the rain, and for dinner.

Anyways, I would like to tell you what Korean Birthdays are like. We eat out like normal birthdays. I kind of eating out in Korean style because we get a plate of food and share among us. I don't know but sharing food makes it more enjoyable to eat. Then, we usually go watch movies, go to cyber cafe, or even a normal cafe. We sometimes do fireworks, Kind of fun.

But, this was during my high school. After high school, Koreans usually go drinking and karaoke.

For girls, I heard they book a hotel, and do a party there, eating sweets and drinking wine lol

Well, I think Korean birthdays are more about being together and hanging out rather than going to places.

This is my limited knowledge of Korean birthdays because I had very few Korean birthdays lol I lived more then half of my life abroad :S

Turning 21 soon!

My birthday is coming soon.

Its pretty interesting. The month is 01. The date is 21. The years 1991. The age is 21. This years 2012. I'm taking 21 credits. It seems 2,1, 0s are frequent. Although I'm catholic, I'm really superstitious lol. Yeah I know I'm a fail catholic.

Anyways I kind of wanted to talk about friends and my worries, because usually birthdays are celebrated with your friends. So, its going to be an emo post.

So read at your own risks lol <3

I don't really have people to celebrate my birthday with. Its either, I just pass it away or just go out and eat with friends, but nothing exciting. It just feels like a regular outing and pretty much is a regular outing. But, the main problem is I don't think I have like 'real' friends.

Well, I might be insulting my friends, but I don't hangout haha

I don't do stuff with anyone lol. Well, my mom doesn't like me hanging out with people because she thinks I'm weak, since I have my dad's fail genes. And doesn't like people coming over. I talked to her about this break and she did say it was her fault and she would change that if we could live the past. She told me, she was too busy trying build a stable life and couldn't bother with my luxuries of having friends to hangout with.

 Moreover, traveling kind of screwed many friendship. We didn't have facebook when I was in elementary school. So, I lost most of my childhood friends, well I'm not even sure if they last that long.

My current friends are very international. So, my problem is that I don't see them at all lol. And if I go to Korea, I would have no friends. I would have 3 Korean friends lol. And 2 I don't even really contact.

lol, and with 2 years of military service, I'm not even sure if any would try contacting me.




I guess year 2015, It would be a complete fresh new start?

October 2011

Just a little update on my life. Well this blog post will probably for me to look at and realize what I need to do to become a better person.

Currently, I have bad grades. I have no idea why this is happening, but I just a few ideas. First, my body is really tired. I feel very slow. Reading takes forever, and I cannot focus at all. -.-  I tend to surf the internet too much. Second, I feel really demotivated. Mainly, "why am I doing computer science" quote keeps going through a while loop. This happened to me before at freshmen year, but its happening again. Lastly, I feel I need to see my parents/family as soon as possible. I probably didn't like my parents much, but I do feel that they are the reason I go to college.


So, maybe it is a slump for me.

After failing physics, I forgot how to be good on tests...  and I did the same thing on one of my computer science class.


I need to put myself together and start working from tomorrow. Fall break is coming, so I was thinking about relaxing, but I need to study.

Oh yeah.. it was also annoying that my computer would keep breaking that my homework would keep getting deleted. However, I got a new computer on the way so it should be fine.

I hope I remind myself to focus on the next test.



Fall break is coming soon. I'll post more about Korea soon!

Just a post

So, I have upload my photos on the Incheon Airport. Click on it to go to that post. Oh yeah you people reading my blog -.- Comment! COMMENT DONT BE SHY! I really don't know whose reading and it gets boring just me blabbing about non-sense. Having comments will keep me from being INSANE.

Another picture that I'm uploading. This is Malaysia from 2 years ago. I don't know I'm just so attracted to this photo. It looks as if the buildings can touch the clouds. And if you look at the clouds, it just makes me feel weird haha.

My Cat, My Shoe, My Package, My T-Shirt, My Watermelon

I got a lot of new companions <3. Well, I call everything that I buy or get called companions, since they will never leave my sight and go through stuff together! No, its not a side-effect of having no friends D:

It should be considered as creating more warmth in life! If everyone did this, there would be no war!

Anyways, this would be part of my memories. So, when I go old and dumb, I'll have something to remember from when I was younger and had a life? Well, not really but I guess now might be better than later.

So, this is my cat. It was created yesterday and I kill him a lot with my itouch. Its hard to explain how I kill him. I'll post a video how I kill my cat. Anyways, I should name him. I think I'll call him Coci. Well, Coci sounds pretty weird but it means "meat" in Korean. Not exactly since meat is pronounced Goki. I guess I didn't want to eat him, so decided to change the pronunciation a bit.

Yeah, I got sweet purple shoes! I went to the mall after my test yesterday and got them. God, I thought I was going to die, because I haven't slept in the dark for the 5th week. Like literally, I never turned my lights off. And yes, I think it can kill people. Anyways why I got purple??? It was cheap first of all! It was on sale while the other color was not. And I guess I grew found of purple. Its so hard to choose a favorite color, but I became to like purple since my sister likes it. I feel like getting purple stuff so that she will be jealous and I can make fun of her. :) This is an example of a good brother-sister relationship! Oh and this was the first time I wore a shoe in ... 8 weeks? I'm not kidding. I had shoes but those got smelly and couldn't wear them. So, I got cheap 10 dollar slippers. Then I was trying to get shoes. I wanted converse. (Stupid stubbornness). I look around and my god, they are like 50 bucks with tax -.- So.... I never wore shoes until yesterday. My feet hurt a lot... slippers are not exactly nice to run around campus with and it was worst this semester since the bus rarely came. So, today I got to enjoy my new shoes to the utmost pleasure. I realized how great shoes are and I'm thankful for being able to afford shoes.

So, I got trolled yesterday as well. I got a package lol and it said some funny stuff on there haha. It took me a whole lot to figure out who it was. The sender? the seller? the person who ordered? ... It was the guy who works in the post office ! D: He's pretty cool and we've been in the same dorm for a year in freshman year. But, who knew he would write this! And the person(his employer) got mad at me for receiving "bad" packages.

This is another package from my friend. I lol'ed when I got this. Damm you your making me a nerdiest geek in Tech! Well, I guess I have an excuse now for slacking off :) Oh yeah lol and thank you for making me subscribed to the seller haha I get ads from them.

My room a night before exams. Yes its so dirty -.-. But, this photo is work of art. It shows the un-concentrated, struggling mind and the emotional unstableness. It isn't this bad on regular days.

The best fruit in the summer. Koreans love watermelon. Its one of the little happiness we can get during the hot summer. Eating a watery, cold watermelon :)

Tiring Day

Today was actually a really tiring day. I guess I'm the only one to blame, since it was I who decided to not study for my test until the last possible moment. I really can't focus during the summer. I feel really bad for studying while everyone else is having fun with friends and family. Thus, I become distracted ever so easily. Omg, this cat making software is amazing.

http://neutralx0.net/tool/bnmk_e.html

I mean seriously, try it out. Its so much fun!

Moreover, I' got an iPod touch :) Its a refurbished one that has be previously owned by some other person. But, I got it for free! Well, my friend lost a bet lol and had to buy me. And today I finally received it from the seller. It was an interesting experience buying a used iPod touch. The back case was pretty scratched up. Quite dirty honestly. But the screen itself has no scratch. So, I guess buying used isn't as bad.(Mine was grade B). I also ran to the mall today to buy shoes. I was quite desperate. I really wanted shoes since I have been wearing slippers to class for 6 weeks now. My slippers are getting really thin since I walk so much.

Since I am very very sleepy, I think I'm going to stop writing for now. Tomorrow maybe, I'll post a long list of pictures of my new babies and how my life is like.

Korean Poem & My Life: WangJo Ga

This poem is called a 서정요, basically a type of  poem. 

And I thought I shared it with everyone since I too feel like the poet. 

The poet was actually a King named Yuri. 

He was one of the Goguryo's king, well one of the Kings who ruled Korea

(Korea was divided back then)

I really don't know why he wrote it, but I guess he had the same feelings I have

So, let me translate. 

펄펄 나는 저 꾀꼬리는 

Even that flying bird (actually a black-naped oriole)

암수가 서로 노니는데 

is loving with another bird

외로울 사 이내 몸은 

 whom would my lonely self 

뉘와 함께 돌아갈꼬

be together with. 

I probably destroyed the poetic beauty of the poem, 

But, this is how I feel every freaking day. 

Yup that's me!!!

New Blogger: Emma

I asked a friend to help contribute on this blog. Since I can't provide enough Korean goodies as I am overseas. My greatest wall to introduce Korea is I lack Korean college experiences, I don't have direct pictures to share nor videos lol. The basis of this blog was probably past personal experience, pics from google and youtube videos. :) So hopefully, she's crazy and helps me expand this blog. 

I am not sure how much she can contribute, but I am very excited to hear about her Korean Seoul Stories <3. 

So, let me give an introduction of her. Her Korean name is Eun Ju and her English name is Emma. She is from Korea obviously and she is Korean. She attends a Korean university. I met her during highschool in Korea. We were in different classes. I was studying French and she studied German. (Our school was divided into foreign languages). But, we both did some after school activity for English. Well, I only did it because I knew I was going to go back aboard after a year in a Korean highschool. As for her, she was really interested in learning English. It was quite fun, since I was able to actually speak English. Except, the instructors for the English classes... were honestly, not as good as I wanted them to be. Emma will probably disagree with me about the instructors lol, but really... Korea takes ANYONE, as an English instructor... I'm not saying this to be racist or ignorant... I mean few years ago, they accepted a rapist as a English instructor. Anyways please don't generalize this. I have met a lot of inspirational and helpful instructors in Korea before. Its just that compared to my international school that costed $$$, the instructors were not as good. Back to Emma since this is about HER, not English instructors lol

So, why did I suddenly decide to steal her time to make her work like a slave??? Basically, she asked me how she can learn English more efficiently. I was about to say watch TV, but I don't think it works after your grown up. So, the other idea was to force her to write blogs, and I edit her posts. 

So, it will be a win win situation. I get to be lazy, she get to learn English. lol I kind of wish that I would write blogs in Korean then she would correct my Korean.So jealous of people who can write Korean. 

She's going to start posting next week. She told me she has exams next week so after that she can start working her butt off and do sexy dances! lol jk I'm not going to make this blog into a porn site. 

Can't wait to force another person to blog with me :) 

My Hometown

I was born in Seoul. Yes, the capital of Korea. Where it is crowded, bright, and loud. Its really too easy to assume that I live in an urban and tech savvy environment. But, really I never lived in such place. My hometown was near one of the most urban part of Seoul, but it was actually really antique. I lived in a house with a yard, which is considered either for really rich people or the really poor. And No, my family wasn't really rich so, we were relatively poor. My neighbor was really small, everyone knew each other. Even now, my parents still recognize some of the neighbors back 10 years ago. The place is quite dirty as everything is really old. Some of the houses are empty as the owners moved to a better place to live. This place is probably what is left of the ancient Seoul, like 30~40 years ago. So, it was really interesting to live there for the winter since we still own our old house. 

These are just some pictures to give you guys a basic idea of where I come from

This is where the cool kids hanged out :)

This place sells 떡볶이 (just copy paste and google it )

Duk Bok Ki, aka spicy rice cakes 

Finally, this last picture is where I lived. 

Its the house behind the truck. 

Yea, it was such a crappy place. 

But, it was the first house my parents were able to buy. 

The house where my sister and I were born.

The house I had my first dog and she had puppies.

Also, it had a lot of Morning Glory in the garden, which made my family love the flower so much!

p.s. I loved how it snowed when I got to Korea.

Update on MY LIFE

I am pooped. School was hectic as hell and I am addicted to this game that is over consuming my time. I am probably going to stop gaming after today or tomorrow because I want to rest. Maybe watch some Korean shows from the internet. Gah, I wish Korean tv stations would just let people upload shows on youtube so that everyone can watch! I mean why not just make their own international youtube channel where they upload some videos? They can get a lot of money from youtube ads! haha I'm getting off topic again. Let me summarize with topics, so that I don't go all over the place

This semester 

This semester was honestly, quite hellish as usual. It showed me how a weed out class is suppose to act like. I think I managed to get a B, but I really don't understand the purpose of failing students and then giving out a curve the let them pass. I think we learn more by having easier Bs and As that are earned. Omfg, like right now I hate C programming so much cause they went through it so fast that I had trouble keeping my grade up. My java programming was fine. The TAs were really nice and helped me get through as long as I worked hard. The prof for 1332 was  amazing. I did not have to use my text book but just base my studying on my notes :). C programming on the other hand, it was hard to find help, so I ended up doing bad on it. Health was a 2 credit class, but I feel that I have spent too much time on it. Like extra credits, test prep, and etc. Japanese was the only class that I really was a bit relaxed and did it cause it was fun. Wow, a fun class at my school. Its because the teachers are understanding -.- they don't throw ZEROs to every student that misses a quiz or test or homework. They just take a bit of points off and then let us do it .(not that I ever handed in a homework, quiz or test late). It just makes the environment more relaxing than tense. The profs actually taught stuff. :) 

Next semester

My next semester starts in like 8 days unfortunately. I am not sure if I will feel rested enough to be motivated to study. Anyways, I'm taking math for cs, physics 2, and data base management. For data base management I definately want to aim a A. For math and physics I think I'll be happy to get Bs. I will still aim for As, since I'm going to devote my summer time to studying. I am worried though. All my classes in gatech hasn't been easy but very very stressful. Maybe I'm not good at adaption to stressful situations. 

Dad

I am not sure if I heard my sister correctly, but apparently my dad can have a liver transplant. I still can't believe this or be sure. I have to talk to my dad and my mother. We really have to talk about this since its going to be risky. My dad's kind of healthy and I am afraid the surgery might go wrong and end up bad. This winter, I'm going back to Korea so I'll get a chance to discuss what's really happening. Oh yeah Happy Mother's and Father's day!

Sister

My Sis got into UCB so congrats to her :) However, sorry we're poor :(.and can't afford to send you there .  I kind of wished that I never went to gatech, so our parents can support you more. I'll repay you later, as soon as I earn money. Its going to take a while but wait a bit . 

Actaully brb. I need to catch a bus. I'll update some stuff more  

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So, back...

Just one more thing

Moving

I keep trying to remind myself to not help other people when they are moving but I think I'm just plain dumb and keep helping others. Fml. I know its a good thing and I should be happy, but I get so tired after. And the worst thing is that the person whom I helped move in doesn't even appreciate it. -.- All I want is a thank you and its so hard to get. I bet its easier to get a thank you from a stranger than a friend. Friends forget to thank each other, sadly. Well, there are tons of exception though. There are friends who thank others that help and I'm just happy to help them. Oh and other thing is even if you help people its hard to get help from others. It just shows how the world is not give and take. Its more about taking :(

Oh yeah thanks Jack for moving my stuff -.- I really didn't mean for you to move all my stuff :S

So, I'm ending my blog life blog here. 

This post is probably full of complains, but I literally don't have anywhere to release this stress

I guess I'll write about

 Galaxy 10.1 

Korean Beaches 

and other stuff... 

I Shouldn't haha

I probably shouldn't be writing this blog post right now haha. Am so busy... And I need to sleep. But anyways I came up with another idea to do. Well, this won't happen until I go back to Korea.... and its going to be a maybe do thing.

You see, I love food. I would do anything for eating food. So... I was thinking why not make Korean food or try youtube recipes and comment on them? I get to eat food and learn how to make them as well! I mean who wouldn't want a husband who can cook! haha jk

Maybe I'll try out making cooking videos later, well this winter, since I'll be in Korea. Haha the thing about making videos is that I don't mind once they are made, but I get so freaking shy when they are made... haha its freaking awkward seriously ahaha so... I am going to be so embarrassed making videos infront of my parents. They'll probably send me to the doctor or disown me haha  Any ways back to work ....

Sick & Updates

Being sick in Malaysia, a tropical country, is probably the worst thing ever... Its hot, so you want the air conditioning to be on, while your sick so the air conditioning makes your sickness more enduring. So, you can't really do anything about it. Argh! I don't even really feel sick... like I don't have a major head ache or extreme coughing. Its just a light sickness. Still, if I stay in KLCC or crowded places I can't stand up straight sigh. Well, on the bright side, its better than being sick during school... That would really suck since school itself is a cold society, where nobody really cares if you are sick. 

Anyways, updates. I did pretty decent this semester, except I had to drop computer science since I was taking too many credit hours and programming... it takes a lot of time, if you suck at it. As for me, I did suck at programming so I ended up spending tons of hours devoted on the homeworks. Physics and math was insane... I started to not understand anything. Well, I still managed and managed better than some students. Japanese and English was pretty good. English I was lucky to have a friend who helped me explain stuff more clearly. 

I haven't seen any friends yet in Malaysia, partially due to the sickness. I also have this feeling of wanting isolation and more family time. It really doesn't feel right living in a different country alone. Hopefully I can endure it. My dad is moving to Korea this January while my mom and sister are remaining in Malaysia so that she can graduate. Basically our family is sliced apart. Kind of worried about my dad living alone, but I guess we can't help it and the doctor said his health improved. I really do hope everything goes alright. 

Just some updates on my friends. D started a blog, to stop nagging me about his life. Well, he doesn't really write much and I'm a bit worried since he hasn't chatted with me after I blocked him lol.... (I couldn't help myself since I was at my limits). I'm thinking of sending D a pack of milo since he said he wanted them on his blog. My friend S, broke off with his girlfriend. Quite unfortunate, since I tried to help them get together. Pew Pew. And its his first time having a relationship and first time to break up with someone, so a bit worried about him as well. I really hope they can maintain a mutual relationship at least. K and L went to New York, bet they are having tons of fun. hmmm what else? I don't really remember much more. Oh my Korean friend is joining the military.... well I'll join him in like 3 years argh!

I hope everyone had a merry christmas! Oh... I forgot to go to church!! FAIL.... I was sick.... hope Jesus can forgive me =D Happy belated birthday Baby Christ!

Weezer & me

My relationship between weezer isn't anything particular or special. They were the first band I actually started listening to, but they were also the band I listened to while I was having a hard time in life(well not too hard since there are more people who have a harder time). And after that I would seldom listen to their songs since I have couple of thousands of mp3. Today, I was using Grooveshark which is a pretty good music player, since pandora has so many advertisements. I really didn't have any artist names that came in mind except for weezers. Wow, while I was listening to weezers a lot of flashbacks and emotions came through. This is really interesting since its like classical conditioning. I was conditioned to express nervousness(except that I'm nervous most of the time) when I listen to old weezer songs.

Still, I love weezer though. They didn't really encourage me to live for a better future, but they provided a distraction.To distract myself from my surroundings, well at least for a moment. Actually, Grooveshark gave me a whole bunch of weezer songs that I have not yet listened to . I guess I have plenty more to enjoy now :P

So, why am I writing this? No real reason. I just wanted to write something personal. So, this blog is like more of a MY blog. Maybe something like a open diary. So, the future me will see this and laugh about it. Who knows maybe this would be reference for aliens when humans are gone. Maybe I'm just personalizing this blog cause I'm used to writing diaries and its fun the re-read them.

Interesting though, I only have 20 more Korean blog posts to go! Then, I'm probably going to shift gears to another topic. I haven't decided on what topic I should write about. I am interested in making videos like those popular asian video makers on youtube.... But, I have no idea how they are so funny and interesting to watch!