Nervous break down

Its interesting how life turns out to be really different from what you imagined. My dream started off with becoming a fire fighter, moved on to becoming a scientist, changed to becoming hotel manager, and finally broaden down into becoming a businessman. However, its not just your dream that constantly changes. Fate, the biggest influential shareholder of my future, comes in. My shareholder, Mr.Fate is just too hard to control. Its like he controls 50% of my future share while I only have 30 %.

So, why am I having a nervous break down? Cause, I'm having doubts whether or not I have chosen the right path for a brighter and better future.

I am suffering a lot in school. All I do is study. Its not like I study for an hour and play games for another. I literary sit in my chair all day, lie in my bed reading, or going to the bathroom. Well, there are those times when I would surf the net, reading Korean news articles or checking out the exchange rate. The main problem is that I am not a "bright kid". I understand things slower than others! I learned to read slower than others, didn't have an idea what grades were until I was in high school, even when I learn new languages, they seem easier after the semester is over.

I am not sure if I am in the right school. The competition's too high and I think I'm a bit slow to catch up. Like, I would take hours just understanding few concepts, while my friends wouldn't even study for the test.. Programming as well, is really complicated. I need to try really hard.

Transfer schools maybe???

Depends on how this semester goes... But, this past 3 weeks killed my soul