Disgusted;

Yes, people are disgusting, including myself. Well, today I just couldn't sleep because my roommate was snoring the whole night. I got pissed off, took a jacket, and left the room. I'm just waiting for the housing office to open so I can go see if I can find a solution. Fuck me. I'm pretty sure the housing office wouldn't see this as a problem and shake me off with some lame excuse. I truly hate myself. I should have just paid a bit more and got a better dorm. Fuck my efforts to save money by getting a cheaper dorm. Fuck me seriously. Life is never cooperative to your wills.

A kid I got to know last year called me today. I was dumbfounded because when I reached out for my phone, it displayed the name of a person who is suppose to be in USA. Well, I picked up the phone and talked. Apparently, the kid had to withdraw for a semester because computer science was too hard. He just wanted me to talk to him because of his insecurities. I think I did a bad job of it because I suck at making people feel better. I mean, he shouldn't have withdrew from school... and I have previously mentored him to not take that course load. I guess I'll be grabbing lunch with him sometime- with the money which I do not have.

Well, at least I'm going to get breakfast. Breakfast here is pretty interesting. Not the boring stuff you get in college. I had breakfast two times, and it was great. I mean, I don't have time for breakfast anyways. I sleep at 5 am and get to lab at 10 am.

Fall and winter.

Winter is coming. It is getting cold in Korea. I'm not used to the cold. I get awfully tired and slow. I don't know... I'm having mixed feelings these days. Well, the memories of the past are reoccurring. I've recently started playing this game I used to play in my freshman and sophomore years. I forgot a lot about this game. Then, I realized I remember certain aspects of the game, and other memories. I don't remember all of it, but I know my cognitive abilities came back. I don't know, I've tried so hard to keep moving forward, and I am. However, I miss the past.

Back at Graduate School

I’ve really enjoyed my visit to Seoul. It was the rest I have been yearning for – I’ve never got a chance to really rest in graduate school. Like always, as soon as I reached home, I ended up being sick for couple of days. I consumed a lot of food, and slept. I did meet up with few people. I met this girl from high school. It was 8 years since I’ve seen her. We talked about various topics, and I had fun. I’ve also met up with my college friend. I did end up befriending a person from okc, and I had her come along to meet up with my college friend… The girl from okc and I acted natural enough that my college friend didn’t know that it was actually my first time meeting her in person- we actually didn’t know each other’s names. However, he did enjoy her company. Well, I’ve also made them addicted to the curry restaurant; I mean, the curry there is fabulous and very… expensive. Before leaving, I’ve bought a bit of stuff to help me study. I mean, the ultimate goal of everything is to become academically successful. I got back to school at like 2am. I didn’t bother going back to the dorm and went straight to the lab. I had to prepare for the next day so I can study, which is today. I feel really refreshed, and I have loads to do.