Waiting for a package

Waiting for my speakers to arrive. Its suppose to be cheap so I'm not too excited. Its my first time having a real set of speakers so  I don't know what to expect. It already arrived and I'm just waiting for the email saying its here to be sent. 

Listening to emo/punk/rock/alternative music. I really don't understand why people would abandon such good music. I mean it is emo and I've said in the past is better to somewhat remove yourself from negative music. But I don't think you should hate this type of music. Like emo had its time when it became main stream. Like everyone would be hyped up of listening to emo just like how people listen to electro these days. The problem is people don't have a lot of loyalty. They never look back. I wonder if it would be the same for electro music. How many people would leave the electro music scene after it becomes old. 

Maybe change is good, maybe loyalty is good. 

Caring about what other thinks & Koreans diss too much

I'm pretty sure many of you have heard the quote "Be yourself." I think its a saying that simplifies too much. I may be over-analyzing but, its something I want to take note of. Being yourself is important. I agree. I also encourage a lot of people to be themselves because I went through a lot of pain in changing myself. However, I can't say the change was bad or good.

The change was necessary. I needed to change myself to fit in. Just because you were the new kid in America doesn't mean it helps in fitting in Korea. Its a completely different thing, especially when you really want to meet people. If you want to be alone, it kind of doesn't matter, I guess. You're not bridging any personal spheres of influence. That was a bit out of topic but, anyways if you was yourself and didn't want any change, you won't be able to fit in. The cultures are too different. Change just helps you get along with everyone.

Being yourself is also important. If you keep changing to fit in, you just loose yourself. You don't become the person you want to be, but you becomes this monster that you don't like. Thus, you just hate yourself. Its really dumb.

Thus, there has to be some moderation between being yourself and caring about what others think. I usually don't care what other people thinks unless they are people who are special to me. Sorry for the disorganized sentences. Going to the bank but I had some spare time and wanted to spam my thoughts in here.

Another topic of interest. Dear Koreans, we really need to stop back stabbing each other. This is a big problem because a lot of Koreans I meet keep talking crap about each other. Seriously we need to stop. We're just spitting on our own faces. Foreigners have their own issues. Its just that most of us didn't go deeper...Its like when my parents lived in Norway. They thought Norway was perfect until they lived there. lol. Like any other country it had problems. For example, my mom was taking the subway and someone started jerking off in front of everyone. ^^. Its really not something most people would expect.

Anti Social & Self Worthlessness & Resting

I'm a different kind of anti-social. Introverted and I hate emotional attachments. But, I can get comfortable with any kind of person instantly.

I need to watch out for self worthlessness. Its really hard for me to remove this. I feel so dumb most of the time.

Resting is important. I always felt guilty to rest. So, I rarely rested. Most of the time I would sluggishly study, which was really inefficient. I should have rested properly and worked hard. I walk fast like I used to. It means a lot. Days when I was depressed. I just didn't feel like going forward. Walking faster means I want to go forward.