Sketchy jobs;

02/28/14-2:16AM: So, I got involved in a sketchy job. I'm not talking about anything illegal. Its more like I have no idea if I'm going to get paid or not. Its really unstable and unreliable. I'm just going to assume I'm doing this as charity since I don't want to get disappointed. Its a gamble. I'll say there is 70% I'll get paid.  At least I'll get pho and paid as well if I do win the gamble. 

Exams; Workout;

2/27/14-4:42PM: Its quite strange when you always drench yourself in sadness and degrade yourself constantly then you do well on an exam. It was one of those hardcore courses as well. It made me really happy. It was the spark I needed. 

I'm trying to release anger through workout. I feel really worn out trying my best and getting negative responses. I really do care about people, its just that sometimes it gets too much for me to handle and I get passive aggressive. I can't help it. You care about them and they don't care about you. You just get emotionally worn out. You're left with nothing. So, I'm trying to release a lot of my emotional problems in the form of exercise. I get physically worn out and I take long showers. It feels really good water pouring down on you. I feel cleansed. Then I would get ice to cool my feet. I'm too heavy to run sadly and it cause my ankles to be in pain. 

Guacamole;

02/25/14-8:00PM: Finally made some after going to the supermarket and poking a lot of avocados. I found an huge ugly avocado that was soft. I never had guacamole. I added all the ingredients, mixed everything up. I tasted it. I found out that I never had guacamole before so I don't know what it is suppose to taste like. But, I love it. Love the smooth texture. Its really creamy. Its somewhat similar to eating chicken liver but fruity. (Should try chicken liver, if you haven't). The onions gives a spark and the tomatoes are refreshing. I didn't put it in the fridge so I didn't get to taste it when it was cold but, I'm sure it would taste a lot better. I'm not even sure if you're suppose to eat it with crackers, but I am at the moment.