Plans:
1. Pass this semester Graduate.
2. Fail:
a. Military
b. Study/get more experience in coding
c. Come back to college
d. Graduate.
Expectation: Degree. What to expect in Computer Science.
Goal: Improve physical health
Plan: Go to military
Expectation: Health. Anger.
Goal: Get better at Programming
Plan:
Languages to study-
1. PHP
2. ASP
3. JSP
4. JQuery
5. CSS
6. html5
7. xml
8. ccna
9. ccnp
10. SIS
11. Java
12. Databases mysql
13. C
14. C++
15. Ocjp (Important)
16. Ipic (Important)
Areas to study
1. Networking
*Databases
*Data structures
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2. Artificial Intelligence
*Practice with AI competitions
3. User Interface
*Read a lot.
*Read all the books recommended in the Gatech cs courses
*http://www.catalog.gatech.edu/colleges/coc/ugrad/comsci/threads/degreq/mod-sim-people.php
*http://ocw.mit.edu/courses/electrical-engineering-and-computer-science/
4. Computer Architecture.
*Read.
Brain Work
*Just do a lot of algorithm problems.
Weakness
*Programming.
*Figuring things on my own.
*Slow in understanding program structure
*Implementation of the concepts
Strengths
*Learn from the past.
*Concepts are easily understood.
* Reusing information I've learnt.
* Observant learning.
Things I need
* CS programming books
* 2x Wide screen monitor
* Sofa instead of a bed.
* Airconditioner.
* Fridge
* A room
* Headphones
* Printer
* Desk
Overcoming the weakness. Since I'm bad at figuring things out, I should just get exposed to a lot of the programs already written. I guess that is a good plan. Since I'm a observant learner, watch youtube videos on programming or get extra lectures with Korean tutors.
Expectations: Proficiency in get a job.
Estimated Time Period: 2-3 Years.
Current Age: 21.
Age after military: 23.
Age after Goal reached: 25-26.
Internship:???
Graduate school:???
Doubts: Would this work? What is my backup plan? Am I confident it will work? Would I be able to compete with the people already in the workforce?
Answer: Depends how much I get pissed off at the military. So, depends how many people beat me up in the military. Depends if negativity takes over or I win. But for sure, wanting to study and forced to study are two different thing. College was forced. After college, its my free will. I just wish my parents will fuck off and let me do my own thing. Idk if they controlled me for doing something bad, I really won't mind. Its just that they expect things that they never helped me construct. I can't just be smart instantly. It takes time and investments. Plus, they keep adding needless fears. I don't know. My head hurts because I have to consider all these plans to get to the goal. I don't even know if its humanly possible. Just do it. Its not like I have a choice anyways. Fuck negativity drains you a lot more than I thought it would. Idk Fuck Implementation and planning is different. FUCK would I be lazy? Idk Just really hope the military is the shittiest place in the world.
Idk I'm blaming my parents for living in that shitty apartment. I can't focus.
Question: Why am I continuing Computer Science if I suck balls at it -.-. I don't even enjoy computer science. WTF. I'm just retarded. Yeah.. I'm just stupid. For sure... I'm stupid... Yup... I'm stupid. I have no idea what's going to happen to the future.
Goal: Fix Depression
Plan:
Its quite impossible. Do I have to live like this?
I'll get a dog.
Music.
Expectations: Nothing.
Problem with depression: Impossible to concentrate. Can't see objectively. Likely to drain other people.
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